the day is so far away

I just can not help but be soooooo excited about July 29th. I am ready to be his wife. I can not wait to walk down the isle and see his face when he sees me. Things are coming along so wonderfully, except the mother-in-law issues. I just want it to stop with her. I deserve a wonderful wedding and I Will have what I want. Funny thing is I am not even asking for a huge wedding, I Want a small family and friends event where we just have fun. I am gonna dance me butt off.... wait that is not a good idea it is one of my best assets (get it LOL) I just can not wait. My Matron of Honor is such a wonderful help, I don't think I could do any of this without her.

Externship is like half way over, I am loving it. I know it takes me a lil bit of time to get things but I try so hard to get all of this. I can not wait til graduation. This is such a huge deal for me, and it is so close...

ok head hurts really bad, I needed to talk to my empty world. Night

Which are you?

It amazes me how people are. You have people that will only do what other people do, people that do it all, and people that finally realize that those people are only doing what they are doing... why would you want to be a follower... why would you want to give your life to someone else to determine? Not me, I love my life, it may be a little rough but it is still mine. How can people just sit back and wait around for someone else to make the choice for them? I used to be like that, in high school once... then I got tired of it, I got tired of letting someone else tell me what to wear and what to eat, what to say, who to be friends with... that just was not me. So i turned around one day (this is a serious true life situation) and looked this girl in the face and told her "shut up, I will do what I want to do." I remember this night vividly, a famous rapper had been shot, I Was going to a dance at my high school for the first time... WOW what a night, they snubbed me at the dance and we were never the same after that... She was the type that needed to tell someone what to do or her life was not complete. I am sure she is married now and bosses him around too...

Point is: Live live your way, not someone else's. It will be way more exciting in the long run.